So, I had my first “Daddy Revelation”. You know, those little snippets of God that people see/learn of when they become parents. Here’s how it went down…
I was singing and playing keyboard, worshipping God all by myself in the church sanctuary. I was singing this chorus:
Somehow my weak glance has overwhelmed You
Somehow my weak love has stolen away Your heart
These lyrics are based out of the Bible in Song of Songs 4:9- “You have stolen my heart, my sister, my bride; you have stolen my heart with one glance of your eyes . . .” In the allegory the “Lover” representing the Lord is saying this to the “Beloved”, representative of the Christ-follower. Simply put, God is looking at you and saying, “YOU overwhelm me when you love me.”
Most people find the Song of Songs to be a challenge to relate to. And, most people balk at verses like this, which suggest somehow that our All Powerful God could be moved in His heart, even overwhelmed, by the attention of one poor, weak soul like you or me, who loves Him back.
But, IT’S TRUE! Even the slightest movement of our heart (“glance”) toward Him touches Him so deeply that He would say we have stolen His heart, to even conquered the Lover of All with our puny love. It is an incredible trust to wrestle with. Totally unbelievable to our minds….
So… what does this have to do with me and being a (new) Dad? Here goes. I was singing that chorus thinking the usual thoughts of, “Can this really be true? It’s just so hard to REALLY believe it, that my love for God could affect Him so profoundly. It’s hard for me to truly believe that I don’t have to somehow earn His love or be “good” so that He’ll want to love me.” And as I’m wrestling with these thoughts in my head, I get see in my mind, my sweet 3 and a half month old daughter, Chloe.
I start thinking, “Oh, she’s so amazing. I love her! I’m totally in love with her!”
And it was like God’s Spirit saying, “That’s how I love you.” All at once it made sense. All I have to do is look at her, and my heart swells with pride and joy and I can’t help but explode with rejoicing and delight over her. Really, that’s how I feel! And, the funny thing is, she’s incapable of doing anything to “earn” my love and affection for her. I love her because I love her, because I LOVE HER! I just DO! There’s no other reason.
And the Father (God) looks us in the face, smiles and says, “I love you because I love you, because I LOVE YOU!” We can’t do anything to earn it, or to stop it! He just does and He can’t help Himself — He loves us!